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Friday, August 29, 2025

Personal Blog 15

 I always feel so useless whenever I get sick, especially during the school year. I don't have any motivation to do any school work and I can't see any of my friends and I feel physically miserable. I can't go to the first football game and marching performance of the year. I hate it and it makes me feel like laying in my bed and crying for the whole day, but when I do that I can't even cry.

It doesn't help that I always feel like I'm everyone's last priority. 

It all makes me feel very pathetic and useless.

- Basil 

Thursday, August 28, 2025

Personal Blog 14

I did my audition for Importance of being earnest today but maaaan I got sick.

Longer posts to come. 

- Basil 

Friday, August 22, 2025

Personal Blog 13

 It's Friday night of the second  week of school. I meant to post last week but I didn't. It's going well so far, I'm excited for this year.

- Basil 

Wednesday, August 6, 2025

Personal Blog 12

A lot happened today. I'm so happy I have the friends that I do. There's no one I'd rather be than me. No matter what you do the end is always the same, we all will die. That's why your choices matter so much. What's happening now and what you do with your now is all that will ever matter. It makes no difference if you are remembered or make a difference. You did something only you could ever do, you lived as you.

You can't control what has been or what will be, but you can control what is, because when you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change. You are the most wonderful, unique thing to ever exist because you are YOU. You define your reality. Nobody else. Release your inhibitions. Turn your head and change your point of view. Every moment is a choice. Everything you do is you deciding. It would be easy if we really had no choice but to keep chugging along, or if our worst moments didn't define us, but we do have a choice to give up, and our worst moments do define us, but so does every other waking living breathing moment! I despise the notion of perfection, I refuse to believe that Life Sucks and then You Die, I refuse to believe in a wicked God. There is something wonderfully beautiful about imperfection. About flaws. And everyone is just like you, but will never be anything like you. Life is so beautiful. Even in war and injustice, people fight and live and are beautiful and raise flags with a straw hat or an s on them and choose to hope and believe, not because of any special magical power in hope, but because they chose to.

Don't waste time regretting the choices you made, they're the only ones you could have made. It never could have gone differently because then it wouldn't have been YOU. Please choose to love life. It's your last chance, anyhow. Heaven is found right here on the earth.

Tonight I am hopeful.

- Basil

Personal Blog 11

V + K watched The Perks of Being a Wallflower without me. I had read that book at the end of the school year in my AP Lit class and the three of us were waiting to watch it with V when they finished the book. They finished the book at camp. The two of them watched Wallflower without me. I found out through them both putting their notes on Instagram as "at that moment, I felt infinite" and "we are infinite." I asked V if they watched it without me. Apparently they both assumed I had already watched it. They never even asked. V didn't even apologize when I said I hadn't seen it. It made me feel like shit.

I don't think I ever want to watch Wallflower now.

- Basil

Thursday, July 31, 2025

Personal Blog 10

Thinking about the national anthem. The lyrics are good, the music writing is terrible, it is a genuinely boring composition. But the reason I'm thinking about it is because the last line of the song is a question.

"Oh, say, does that star-spangled banner yet wave o'er the land of the free and the home of the brave?"

Do we still live in the land of the free and the home of the brave? I know the original question is asking if the flag is still flying high after a battle, but in the context of the country we live in now, are we living up to that? I wanted to try changing around the lyrics of the national anthem, to make the entire song a question.

"
Oh, say, could you see
by the dawn's burning light,
in which proudly I hoped,
at my childhood's beginning-
whose red stripes and pale stars,
in the blinding dim night,
through the ceiling we watched;
were they gallantly streaming?

Did the rockets' red glare,
the bombs bursting in air,
give proof through the night
that our flag was still fair?
Oh, say, did that
star-spangled banner ever wave
o'er the land of the free
and the home of the brave?
"

That was probably very cringe but I don't really care. Anyway band camp was really fun. I spent a lot of time with Gavin making a gross blue concoction meant to mimic blue juice valve oil.

Next time.

- Basil

Sunday, July 27, 2025

Personal Blog 9

K came over to my house today (when I say today I mean the 27th, it is 1:00 AM right now), my family is in New Hampshire now, I'll be meeting them in New Jersey this Friday since I had to stay for the rest of band camp. Band camp has been fun but stressful because of my leadership duties. I watched Lesbian Vampire Hunters with K, it was a really fun and stupid movie, and I played some more of Sally Face with him. G is going to stay over Wednesday because my sister will be out with her boyfriend so I'll be home alone.

Talk later.

- Basil

Last Personal Blog

 I'm gonna start keeping a journal, so I am only gonna put rants and stuff on here. The losers get to win. - Basil