Personal Blog 13

 It's Friday night of the second  week of school. I meant to post last week but I didn't. It's going well so far, I'm excited for this year.

- Basil 

Personal Blog 12

A lot happened today. I'm so happy I have the friends that I do. There's no one I'd rather be than me. No matter what you do the end is always the same, we all will die. That's why your choices matter so much. What's happening now and what you do with your now is all that will ever matter. It makes no difference if you are remembered or make a difference. You did something only you could ever do, you lived as you.

You can't control what has been or what will be, but you can control what is, because when you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change. You are the most wonderful, unique thing to ever exist because you are YOU. You define your reality. Nobody else. Release your inhibitions. Turn your head and change your point of view. Every moment is a choice. Everything you do is you deciding. It would be easy if we really had no choice but to keep chugging along, or if our worst moments didn't define us, but we do have a choice to give up, and our worst moments do define us, but so does every other waking living breathing moment! I despise the notion of perfection, I refuse to believe that Life Sucks and then You Die, I refuse to believe in a wicked God. There is something wonderfully beautiful about imperfection. About flaws. And everyone is just like you, but will never be anything like you. Life is so beautiful. Even in war and injustice, people fight and live and are beautiful and raise flags with a straw hat or an s on them and choose to hope and believe, not because of any special magical power in hope, but because they chose to.

Don't waste time regretting the choices you made, they're the only ones you could have made. It never could have gone differently because then it wouldn't have been YOU. Please choose to love life. It's your last chance, anyhow. Heaven is found right here on the earth.

Tonight I am hopeful.

- Basil

Personal Blog 11

V + K watched The Perks of Being a Wallflower without me. I had read that book at the end of the school year in my AP Lit class and the three of us were waiting to watch it with V when they finished the book. They finished the book at camp. The two of them watched Wallflower without me. I found out through them both putting their notes on Instagram as "at that moment, I felt infinite" and "we are infinite." I asked V if they watched it without me. Apparently they both assumed I had already watched it. They never even asked. V didn't even apologize when I said I hadn't seen it. It made me feel like shit.

I don't think I ever want to watch Wallflower now.

- Basil